Rasanya mungkin patut lebih kerap menulis supaya dapat tulis thesis dengan baik? kaitan sangat. I know the style of writing is different but it may be good untuk cepatkan feel menulis tu. oh, bukan menulis je, membaca pun. I'm glad i do like reading. Walaupun genre pembacaan tu kena ubah sikit because some people they just don't read. Macam rugi kan.

So apparently I've no control over myself that I buy anything that I feel I might need later. I know it sounds so bad, no it is bad. I find myself keep creating some alasan to buy something, like I brought a new bed sheet because I've only repeating using two that I have in cyber for these past three years. I brought a hand guard for 8 ringgit, a handbag just because it looks pretty , my purse does'nt even fit in it. What else, a mirror to put in my toilet *my siblings keep stealing things from my toilet now that I'm gone*, a bawal crepe *its freaking bidang 45* but i want to try it anyway. oh, a notebook from Kaison *you know Kaison sells literally everything cute and makes u wanna buy each one of it*  it is 15 ringgit, a bit bigger than the one i used for last semester, thick enough to use for one semester taking notes and scribbling in class. I brought complete set of stationary *all the pens, mechanical pencil, a pack of eraser, ruler all lah* because i thought i left my pencil box back n cyber when i was at kubang kerian for my practical. Then rupa-rupanya my pancil box was with my friend lol, and yes a poetry book by Rupi Kaur gaiss yess dah lama nak memilikinyaa but it is expensive gila nak mati but i brought it anyway and next thing I knew I was broke. Suzi literally asked me 3 reasons to buy it, and somehow I managed to give her my reasons and then she said 'ok belilah'.   ok so, someone really have to keep me from buying things i don't really need.

Then what, ingat nak beli something for my 3 ex-housemate seniors. They are graduating gaiss this november how cool is that. Ye laa no more sleepy classes no more annoying housemates and classmates. Just let the reality slaps you hard on the face. I mean that is how we grow kan. Baru tau how hard it is to find jobs, paying taxes *oh no I'm already a paying taxes citizen* but moree taxes to pay, realize how much money you should have in order to get married bla bla bla all the cycles of being human and getting old. Tapi tu lah *back to what i should get for my seniors* I'm sucks at giving presents, should I consider that person *like dia suka tu and ini* or should I just buy random things? idk

Ok next, I've decided to make a so called bullet journal *hipster sikit* with my Kaison notebook. Ok now I'm thinking to buy a new notebook for notes taking wow so many syaiton here. But anyway, I've written the name of months in it and I tried to make calligraphy which I fail. Sebab otak tak berapa nak kreatif so kena google things laa untuk inovatif idea-idea orang lain. Macam susah jugaklah bila tak kreatif and tiba-tiba kena kreatif ni. dan jugak sebenarnya tak tahu nak letak apa lagi dalam that journal so if you happen to read this you can give some recommendation on what i should put in it.

Lastly, nak cakap pasal Ipoh. That was my second trip to Ipoh. Pergi sebab nak attend majlis Kak Alia di Meru. Bila housemate ajak datang tidur rumah dia, on je la. Ok one new thing I've experienced was to take train to Ipoh, dalam dua jam perjalanan. memang dah lama nak merasa naik ETS ke sana. Senang sangat nak beli tiket bukak online page je bayar guna online payment *nowadays semua online it's harder to control myself*, print or screenshot the ticket, wait till they announce your trip then just masuk je find your seat and duduk. Cumanya, tersalah jugaklah beli seat tu, duduk yang menghadap ke belakang like you're facing backward when the train moves. And it was kinda bising dengan bunyi train, tapi ok laa for a cheap ticket dalam tu pun sejuk je. It did not shakes so much you can read in it tak pening ke apa.

Ipoh kan dia terletak macam tengah-tengah sikit, so kalau naik highway memang lalu bukit bukau gunung ganang semua tu plus there is no light along the road pun freaking gelap gelita, so what I'm trying to say is because of the existance of those bukit and gunung, and they are so close to you and so many lagi I felt like I've been trapped in a place i can not go out. Macam dikepung. Mungkin sebab dah biasa duduk tepi pantai you can see everything from the seashore dan pembesaran pun di tanah pamah. Special thing about Ipoh is that there are so many old buildings from over 100 years ago I'm so amazed with the design so English. And they got so many malls you don't know where to go. Semua mall pun besar-besar. The population, ramai chinese. Even jiran-jiran pun ramai chinese, with dogs everywhere. Jalan dia pun pelik sikit.

Dah balik dari Ipoh ni dah kena bersungguh-sungguh buat research. So gais, again if you ever read this, help me spread my online questionnaire link. I'm conducting a study about nicotine and my target population are smokers and vapers obviously. Tak lama pun jawab I promise you. I really hope that I can get all the data I need without doing anything stupid. I tell you gais from my pilot study, I asked for comments on my questions and suggestion for improvement, and it makes me wondering just how many good people out there that i have not meet yet. Most of them gave positive comments and suggestions, even supporting me wishing me goodluck and all even they never really meet me. And for those people who helps me spreads my link, thank you so much. I am really grateful and even me saying thank you for thousands time doesn't feel enough to repay back what you have done. Hanya Allah dapat membalas semua kebaikan. I really want to do a real thing of my research, and I do really hope I can contribute something to all the smokers and vapers out there. I'm praying that Allah will make it is easy for smokers to actually stop smoking. Amin!

Till then.

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